Things I have done to try and have a baby

lie with my legs against the wall for 30 minutes after having sex
take and record my temperature everyday for 18 months and graph it on computer software
become minutely familiar with my cervical mucous and cervical position
had fortnightly acupuncture sessions for over a year
had lots of blood tests to look at my hormones - progesterone, lutenising hormone, follicle stimulating hormone, prolactin
Lost 10kg
have compuslory sex the day before ovulation whether we're in the mood or not
bought and read four books on natural fertility and six books on miscarriage
had lots and lots of investigative blood tests to look for underlying reasons for recurrent miscarriage
taken elevit, high dose vitamin B6, selenium, and flax oil capsules
drunk disgusting chinese herbal remedies
gone on bedrest
used progesterone pessaries
given up wheat, dairy, refined sugar and raw fruit and vegetables
tried to keep the faith

For everything there is a season

I didn't intend this blog to become what it has - a record of my struggles with fertility and miscarriage punctuated by periods of withdrawl into grief and pain. And it seems my trials are not over and I don't know if I can bear to go on blogging about it.

I had an ultrasound today and there was no fetus, just a yolk sac. At 7 weeks pregnant, this is a strong indication that the pregnancy has failed.

I know there is nothing to say, all we can do is cling onto hope that eventually we will enter a new season.